life

2010-05-28T14:55:00.002+08:00

nak sangat tahu pasal kau kan.. ahh amek kau! read this post!

i dont understand why is there a need to start rumours or even engage me in your topic? is your life too boring that you need me to spice up your life? ohh please! its been so many many months im no longer active in here but the relatives are still being an irritant. part nk mengata pandai! tu lah part panggil sedara. kalau part nk tolong, satu2 larikan diri. aper ni?

i dont need u to keep updated of my life. you have your own life to meddle. Get things right for yourself before saying about others. especially me! i also dont need your concern.

2010-03-14T21:20:00.001+08:00

MOVED

2010-02-06T17:09:00.000+08:00

you don't know what's enough until you've had too much.

2010-02-05T23:47:00.002+08:00

settle me

2010-02-03T20:50:00.001+08:00

2010-01-28T12:47:00.001+08:00

2010-01-28T12:45:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes I wish I had never met you. Because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there."

- Good Will Hunting

2010-01-28T12:44:00.001+08:00

"I was a killer, was the best they’d ever seen
I’d steal your heart before you ever heard a thing
I’m an assassin and I had a job to do
Little did I know that girl was an assassin too"

- Assassin - John Mayer (2009)

2010-01-28T12:43:00.000+08:00

"Well it kind of hurts
when the kind of words you write
kind of turn themselves into knives"

2010-01-24T12:38:00.002+08:00

“Because sometimes you have something you need to say but you can’t because the words won’t come out or you get scared or you feel stupid, so if you could write a song and sing it then you could say what you need to say and it would be beautiful. And people would listen and you wouldn’t make a complete idiot out of yourself, but all of us can’t be songwriters so some of us will never be able to say what we’re thinking or what we want other people to know what we’re thinking… so we’ll never get the chance to make things right again ever.”

2010-01-24T12:38:00.001+08:00

“ I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone,
but I can tell you what it is for me.
Love is knowing all about someone
and still wanting to be with them more than any other person.
Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself,
including the things you might be ashamed of.
Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone
but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

not another pretty face.

2010-01-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

Don’t expect someone to read your mind, and don’t play games with heads or hearts. Don’t tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better then lies. Don’t be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more then angry words.

2010-01-22T18:38:00.002+08:00

Ryan Gosling

2010-01-21T22:52:00.002+08:00

I think it’s more interesting to see people who don’t feel appropriately. I relate to that, because sometimes I don’t feel anything at all for things I’m supposed to, and other times I feel too much. It’s not always like it is in the movies.

light me up

2010-01-19T09:29:00.001+08:00

bad romance

2010-01-18T10:10:00.004+08:00

Don't be surprised. I've taken all the sorrow and now I think I'll turn and walk away cus the tears are building up in my eyes. 21 years of age and it's time to say goodbye cus I don't even want to try to make it through the night.

It won't be a lie if I told you my life was hurt. Nobody is never hurt. All I could comfort myself with is to look around me and realize that every single person i see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what I'm going through. I believe to be strong when things go wrong.

I don't know if I can yell any louder. I can be so mean when I want to be. I am capable of really..anything! How did I become obnoxious? I've never been this nasty. Can't you tell that all this is just a concert?

Ku menatap dalam kelam,
tiada yang bisa ku lihat,
selain hanya namaMu,
Ya Allah

i hope i can.

2010-01-17T23:24:00.001+08:00

come on tell me

2010-01-16T09:56:00.002+08:00

“ My heart didn’t break into a thousand pieces after he left. Instead, I realized all the things he didn’t do. He didn’t want to hear my stories. He didn’t ask me questions. He didn’t smile when I was talking to him. He didn’t hug me out of the blue to make me feel good. His hugs were always a preamble to something else and after he was gone, I wondered if he ever knew me at all."

her 9th happy ending.

2010-01-14T10:58:00.009+08:00

“ We think about it, sing about it, dream about it & loose sleep worrying about it. When we don’t know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don’t know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear loosing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don’t know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define & impossible to live without”.

(THE PRINCESS' HAPPY ENDING!)

impromptu(s)

2010-01-07T01:23:00.004+08:00

"If he were the right guy for you, there would be nothing on this earth keeping him from you. None of this not-over-his-ex sh*t, none of this not-ready-for-committment crap, no excuses, equivocation, or hemming and hawing. He would be there, and present, and totally excited about it. Don’t waste your time if they’re not."

Well, after super long, we met. BITCH PUHLEASE EHK! =D

(IMPROMPTU)

ironically yerp

2010-01-04T00:48:00.003+08:00

december 31st!

2010-01-01T17:32:00.007+08:00

Visited Baby Amrun with the girls. Ohmyyy, how adorable can he be right. He's such a handsome boy la Fizah!!!!

(FRESH FROM NAP)

And here's a toast to my babies!

hear no lies

2009-12-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

fishnchicks

2009-12-28T19:10:00.003+08:00

Had a tremendous makan session with the other fellow SMCs. The day was awesomely spent. i love this! =))

and JB with the family last weekend.

lovers.

2009-12-21T00:18:00.004+08:00

I think why people keep pictures is because unlike them, the people in the pictures never change.

More than just a pretty face;

2009-12-18T10:50:00.002+08:00

More than just a pretty face;:

"I was just like any other girl out there, wondering how I would survive without him. But guess what? I did. I underestimated my strength. I realized that he needed me more than I did, and in the end, it was his loss."

tonight will be a good night

2009-12-14T10:36:00.004+08:00

Sugar rush!

this time be different in someway. ♥!

remind me please.

2009-12-11T00:23:00.003+08:00

it's not everything reminds me of you, it's simply because you're always on my mind.

she day dreams when he's not there, hoping that he smiles when she's not looking.

everyone is a star

2009-12-09T10:13:00.004+08:00

Its December which is also the school holidays. work can never be any busier than this and im falling sick more often. December gonna be work home work home for me. Im a busy bumble bee!

That aside, the team had some time together last evening. I cant be any lazier than this and so here's the uploads, loves!

and im visiting the doctor more than i met the boyfriend. ahahahah!

afraid of the unknown

2009-11-21T11:40:00.000+08:00

389.

2009-11-17T13:41:00.003+08:00

you don't have to wait 3 months to call her.

awesome

2009-11-05T21:37:00.001+08:00

awesome!

proud!

2009-11-01T02:14:00.004+08:00

Hello babies! like the passing wind, i am sometimes here to blog actively and have gone sometimes to hide in my personal kingdom. simply put my interest in blogging usually comes on and off, very much like the lifeline which never traces a straight line unless the person is dead. so here i am, back again. but i won't promise it's for long.

and jaybee was fun!

read with me

2009-10-24T01:24:00.001+08:00

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”

come along

2009-10-23T10:24:00.000+08:00

credits not

2009-10-18T20:00:00.002+08:00

people think dreams aren't real just because they aren't made of matter, of particles. Dreams are real. But they are made of viewpoints, of images, of memories, of puns and lost hopes.

nothing fails when i believe

2009-10-11T12:04:00.003+08:00

i wished i was strong enough not to shed a single tear when my heart was broken into pieces. But fair enough, it was in the past. & now, thankfully HE awarded me with the most precious gift. Patience is virtue =)

time matters afterall

2009-10-09T21:02:00.007+08:00

things have been pretty tiring for me ever since the brother got involved in a major road accident. Just minutes before i hit the bed, momma rushed me to TTSH! alhamdulillah, the brother is safe but recovery sure gonna takes up a long way.

Happy Belated 26th Birthday To You & Happy Advanced 21st Birthday To You too Boy!

Okay babies, i need to catch up on my sleep alott2!

she's amazing

2009-10-08T01:22:00.000+08:00

my peterpan

2009-10-05T16:55:00.008+08:00

Impromptu begins with a message. Something like, "I wanna head to the beach!" And of course expect nothing and moments later, replies start flooding your inbox. Something like, "Yes babe! Let's build sandcastles can.." Bingo! I love my babe! And trust me babies, It is not easy to build one. Anyways, who said it has ever been? Hahah!

One more thing. Been telling myself that I need to get these lazy feet of mine to the gym during the fasting month to get a little tone up at the stomach area but.. there is always a but! however, the babe had promised to get ourselves geared up soon. Pretty pretty soon babe!

Oh Oh as I am typing this, I'm smiling silly to myself. I have so many things I wanna do. I wanna watch movies; 500 DAYS OF SUMMER, PAPER HEARTS, PHOBIA2. I wanna fly kites. I wanna swim. I wanna visit the zoo. I wanna have a picnic at the botanic garden. I wanna go fishing. I wanna hike. I wanna go for a holiday. I want so many things.

Till then, honeys! I seriously think I need my sleep badly. *winks*

just like that

2009-10-04T11:46:00.000+08:00

unlike before

2009-09-28T00:10:00.005+08:00

This year has been tremendously different from previous years. We have more houses to visit since more relatives have gotten their own homes. I like!

Okay babies, my phone is ringing.. toodles!

choice or option

2009-09-27T02:30:00.001+08:00

what's your pick?

oh so glamorous

2009-09-26T00:45:00.003+08:00

Did another rounds and there are more to go. Can't wait! Can't wait! Im pretty excited walking all over Singapore wif the ohsoglamorous Baju!

Once every year we met but the bonds is still strong as ever.

told u so

2009-09-22T11:10:00.004+08:00

" Moga-Moga cepat dapat jodoh ye?" thats of course the norms each time i salam them :) thanks aunties n uncles. Sadly I was at work last evening when the relatives came over and fortunately they missed their opportunity... *hinthint*

Momma..I'm not getting better. The immune system simply refused to recover but that's definitely a no reason not to make my rounds! I bet the aunties n uncles can't wait to interview me just like those normal years. The usual tak-perlu questions ~~again~~. Also I've yet to put on those Baju(s) :):)

Oh oh babies, am craving for thosai n swensens' fish n chips.. I've had too much Rendang(s) Ketupat(s) Prawns n Soda Drinks and now im left with this hoarse voice to last me for how many days i dunno..

enough said

2009-09-20T19:21:00.006+08:00

...Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin! tersinggung perasaan, menyakitkan hati, menyusahkan, menitiskan airmata and sebagainyer..im taking this opportunity to say once again im sorry! u will always be remembered! xoxo..

oh Allah.. Amat perit untuk ku terima semua ini.. Amat sukar untuk ku memaafkan segala perbuatan lalunya. Sesungguhnyer, jadikanlah ku seorang insan yang pemaaf dan pengampun.. Amin.

yes love

2009-09-13T01:01:00.002+08:00

something in your eyes;so exciting. something in your smile; so inviting. Something in my heart; told me I must not have you..

nanny-fied

2009-09-08T20:53:00.003+08:00

Anaqi n Ayden! They are super adorable but so mischievous. I had a hard time chasing them around Geylang. But the babies sure had fun searching for their Baju Kurung n I had fun feeding them with many many junks. *winks*

And this is the naughtiest yet cutest!

my heart skip a beat

2009-09-07T17:55:00.001+08:00

imissualottalottt

my constant reminders to smile

2009-09-06T00:44:00.011+08:00

Once again the babes had a surprised mini celebration for the belated birthday girl at Al Majlis! On a sweeter note, I think it's amazing looking at how we grow over the years. Now we are busy with our own lives but as we make it a point to meet and catch up, that's how much our friendship means to me, babes. No matter how hectic our schedules are, you babes know where I'll be when you need me *winks* ahh that aside, i can't wait for the next birthday babe. ;)

In a nutshell, we had smiles on our faces throughout the whole night.

I love you girls!

Happy Belated 21st Khairunnisa Elias.. Another year older means another year wiser and may you get another year of happiness. Insyaallah Amin :):) Oh oh the wise dramatic dreamer shall always stick together!

hear me pray

2009-09-05T00:52:00.005+08:00

It was days ago when she told me about her dad.. It was just yesterday when he shared about his grandma.. and things are different today.

My heart & prayers goes out to them too. Amin.

it is risky baby

2009-09-02T00:37:00.001+08:00

My biggest bet? Was gambling with you (for you) & guess what? I've yet to win

matters of the heart

2009-08-30T20:31:00.007+08:00

If today you call out my name and tomorrow u do the same

And if you didn't call out my name, but i cry out in pain, what is it then?

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Phrases that marks to the question to be interpreted in many ways

You're bound to lose this fight if you're not to pay,

a considerable watch on the masquerade.

Now speak less of words, and lift up your head

Now prince of my eyes, I'll pray.

I can't beat the language

I can't beat the hair

I can't beat the dreams

But I can beat these thoughts.

Oh love i can...

the smiles i always see

2009-08-29T23:13:00.003+08:00

It would take me a whole courage to be smiling wide despite hoping that someday things will mend and be the same. Now that the line's broken, I'm too afraid to just look back but nonetheless, the girls made me happy..

With that, Happy Birthday dearest babe!

Semoga segalanya berjalan seperti yg diingini.. Insyaallah amin!

i say something

2009-08-29T13:29:00.001+08:00

You think material's the reason I stay?

everyone's worth something

2009-08-25T13:18:00.004+08:00

When two souls are mad, their hearts are far apart from each other, but in the end, xoxo bring both hearts back together again. ♥

I wished you'd be there, be here, be right here with me.

kinderbueno please!

paste a note on your door, with my name on it

2009-08-22T16:40:00.004+08:00

life is not always a bed of roses. we can't expect everything to go in our way because reality check, the best and bad turns in life are in fact the ones that shape us for who we are today. life is, ironically, under our self-control. we rule it. we determine how it should turn out the way we picture it to be.

so where was i last year? having pleasurable time handling the boo boo of life. in one hand, there was the examination stress and on the other, there lies the emotional rollercoaster ride of you-know-what. it's rather impressive to know that i've managed to somehow squeeze my way through the narrow escape of heartaches, failure and lovelovelove, making a forward move to achievement. so yay! i know you think you can fail me but i turned the table around, you made me stronger.

ahh that aside, life is everchanging for me. of course, every step tjhat i take seems like a big leap to the other side but from where i am, it looks greener. let's just hope and pray.

and for that, happy fasting you babies!

is the equation correct?

2009-08-17T00:57:00.004+08:00

In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing you can do is nothing.
- Theodore Roosvelt.

breathe the right air

2009-08-04T09:33:00.005+08:00

"A girl can dream, but it takes a man to make it happen"

One after another. Dreams are achieved. I wonder what's ahead of me. Sometimes things don't go as we plan it to be. I wonder how it gonna be then...

I have been around this topic with everyone almost everytime, that it keeps me thinking and seeing the real life ahead. The more I tried to see the upcoming events in my life, the more I float away with my dreams. But I like it, somehow. I would sit around at home, at work, just anywhere picturing how my life will be when I am married =]

I want to get married early actually and you know the only reason that is stopping me is money money and money. You can easily learn how to cook, how to manage a family, how to treat your husband well and how to do housework, but you just can't simply learn how to save up. I am convinced I am right on that. I like the idea of settling down very quickly and live moderately but happily. I want to have a girl who grows up to be just like me. Loves shopping and anything abstract. She will wear anything that is on me, and I am picturing the both of us, walking hand in hand, in a white sundress and a denim jacket. She'll definitely looks gorgeously cute! I'm smiling silly as I typed this.We will all live in a cosy home, have classic furniture around and probably go with the country theme. I foresee myself being a good wife, making breakfast every morning and starts the day kicking for everyone at home. Mom said I will have a clean home because I ace in housework. That a motivation I shall say. Hah!

Wow I didn't know I have dreams to live for. I've got dreams to remember and I will not fail. One will never live without a dream, and it's that dream that reminds us of who you are in every second of your life.

keep me going &growing

2009-07-27T13:30:00.010+08:00

I am very beezy these days I hardly have time to do anything like any other girls.

Last Saturday, the closest aunt had her siblings gathered for dinner. I am glad I was there :) Dinner was great; I love it..! Its been so long since I met the cousins. Trust me babies, they are growing up fast. Really fast! Their social networking seems pretty much better than mine. However, I wished every single one of them was there, it's gonna be damn kecoh I swear.

And my coming weekends are reserved for more weddings.Weddings after weddings.. I love weddings! But of course the boy is definitely loved and always so manja.. *huggs*

oh just another night

2009-07-19T01:50:00.003+08:00

No one is up and almost everyone is asleep. I can't sleep. I am stress, and I have sleeping disorder. I just won't sleep until the clock strikes 3am, and the next moment, I am already up, all geared to go to work. Even my boyfriend decided to ditch me tonight. What a mover! These eyes are tired and I actually fell asleep on the bike just now. The visor kept hitting the back of his helmet. Boy you should really slow down on your pickup or one day, I might just lose that grip and fly back.

i know right

2009-07-16T12:50:00.004+08:00

Why is it that we tend to say all the wrong things in the heat of a moment? Emotional upheaval causes people to say things thay don't mean.

It takes alot to be a good human being.. and im definitely nt even close to it :/

2009-07-12T18:24:00.006+08:00

Work hasn't change much but I am still adapting to the new environment. It is not easy! It has been a habit shouting your name as soon as I entered the locker. ERK!!! No doubt you are worth the wait. ~~an hour babeee~~(hah!)

& I had the world's greatest laugh and widest smile. I'm sure you too, baby! (so malu right) *winks*

a random morning

2009-07-08T21:20:00.004+08:00

My morning was a blast! The phone rang and my boy caught me mumbling over the phone. GOSH! I was super sleepy i tell you and I know I sound terrible. *cover face with my hand* Then momma got me awake with her nagging hours before my alarm rings. I had wanted to wake up at noon after falling asleep only at seven. ERK!

And my dearest parents made me journeyed all the way to JB and being spoilt as always, i was as cranky as usual. I threw my weight all over JB and got home with 2 pairs of shoes and a sundress :)

oops i did it again

2009-07-03T10:24:00.002+08:00

I woke up today with a low battery handphone, & no text reply from you.
WOW.

whatnots

2009-07-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

You could be my unintended choice to live my life extended. You could be the one I'll always love. You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions. First there was the one who challenged all my dreams and all my balance. She could never be as good as you. You helped me mend broken pieces of the life I had before.

Life is getting a little better on the surface. Alhamdulillah! Thanks for the undying support and courage. "Yes babe, baby steps for you cus you will still stumble and fall if no one hold your hand you know. You are still a baby!! Just a little more patience cus you are getting there. I am proud of you, linda!" Aww how sweet can my girlfriend be right? *blushes*

On a sweeter note, I would appreciate much if someone would give me a thumb up and whisper through my ear "Thanks for making me special dear! You are one special girl.*831*"

for you

2009-07-01T21:15:00.004+08:00

im still around.. if you hadn't notice.

perhaps

2009-06-30T21:44:00.004+08:00

" When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot & hang on. "

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new

I loved you with a fire red but now it's turning blue
And you say "Sorry" like the angel
Heaven let me think it was you...

and boy.. trust me, it will always be you!

*i can't wait for you BIG day, gf!*

A NEW START

2009-06-29T23:37:00.003+08:00

another day to go before i smell July making its way to me :))

i cant wait to start a new month. Oh well, June will never be my favourite. However i managed to cross the bridge. Despite the heart pain days, the teary hours, the cranky minutes and the monstrous seconds.. Im still loving what I've loved since 3 months back. That, i dun deny!

Sometimes, taking the path of a wise man is so... tough.

We tend to let emotions over power sensibility. We open doors to satisfy our desires and not made known of possible negative outcomes. Only when things happen against what we wanted, we find ourselves listening to friends telling us what we already knew. Sick cycle carousel. It happens again and again and we'll never learn. If only I could read your mind then things might be a tat easier isn't it? As much as it was said again and again that words might not even pass the truth, sometimes, I just need to be told of the simple things even if it counts to a million. Yes I am very insecure, but it doesn't take much if it pleases me to have you spelling out everything.

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise
You're the last thing I think of
When I close my eyes

my trust

2009-06-29T00:01:00.003+08:00

TWO SECRETS TO KEEP THE RELATIONSHIP LASTING
1. whenever you are wrong, admit it
2. whenever you are right, keep quiet

a good girlfriend always forgive her boyfriend when shes wrong.

life for you

2009-06-27T22:56:00.007+08:00

Life's been a bitch but was quite good with the girls last morning. I had my smiles reminiscing moments at Gelare! such a waste faizah wasn't around. babe, we miss you! get bac to shift work pleaseeee! :/

And since school's gonna resume anytime soon, I decided to hit the sack over at the favourite cousin's crib for the night. Its been a long time girl since I last gave you kisses and look how long you've grown. i seriously mean it; LONG! hehe..

and before i could even haf my shower she'd dragged me to her room and stunned me with.. "kakak linda! so long never take pictures with you leh" so here's a peep of us taken.

just before nightime, the little cousin had her own bedtime story personally shared by me together with our favourite bears.

okay babies, i wanna get my boy's surprise done. Have faith, even if it does not make sense at times. see ya!

2009-06-23T19:29:00.003+08:00

All i could say for now is...

I MISS HIM!

i hope the paperhearts help you along the way...

thumbs up

2009-06-22T23:41:00.007+08:00

Take 1: "heyy is that maria?"

Take 2: "okayyy! Much better."

It was another mundane Monday. An off day on a Monday isn't appealing at all. Totally. However, was doing the laundry when the phone beep.

her: I'm on leave. I thought of going to east coast actually. But I can change the plan :)
me: Okay babe.. see you at woodlands, 1330hr.

Back to the old days.. Hopped onto a long bus ride and all the way we journeyed to east coast park.

And presenting to you.. this little girl who's successfully cheered her mundane Monday with many many smiles. *hugs for her* She misses you, baby!

Goodnight world!

thoughts

2009-06-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

Every night her tears will roll.
With every might, but she cant control.
All that make sense, bursting like bubbles,
and now she feels so vulnerable.

But every time there's a pair of hands,
a slap so tight, on her face it lands.
Hoping for a rebound her cry grows faint,
praying to god to take away her pain.

She contemplates suicide, but she don't want to die.
As she hits the floor, she curls up and lie.
She distant herself from absurdity,
As she tries to catch up with reality.

E I G H T

2009-06-18T20:36:00.003+08:00

Despite doing double last night, I could still afford another sleepless day with the girls. Thanks babies, for e happy moment over at Sakura!

ps: i miss baby. Bluek!

its just me

2009-06-15T21:30:00.003+08:00

I pray to mute despair and anguish
To vain pursuits the world esteems,
Long did I near your soothing accents,
Long did your features haunt my dreams.

Sometimes i find my self thinking of you more then i should but i wont stop myself even if i could. I love you more than you can imagine. When I see your face it brighten up my day. I love you more than words can ever tell. Even more than what im about to say.

I don't remember the last time i felt like this. You make me feel the real me. You don't know how happy it makes me when I can share things with you, comfortably. I love the way you smile. I love the way you make me laugh and you give me hope....when things get a little sad.

Your hug makes me feel free from all the drama and trouble that life brings my way. If i would have 1 wish and one wish only, I wish for this love to be here to stay.

talk to me

2009-06-14T19:53:00.005+08:00

Hello world!
Tell me what's the point of emailing one another every time and when things get too messy, meeting up is still the best? trust me babies, that's so ridiculous.. erk!

I have a story.
ermmmmm nah! i decided not to share. tell u what, i feel so cheated! if never ask, never tell righhhht? where's the initiative here? but to meet up got initiative. ERRRRRK!

and i truly appreciate the little one together with the ~~step~~-lil nephews..
"kakak linda! jom we go fun fair!! there can laugh2, happy2" wahahahah! how understanding can they be right? at a young age summore... Aww!

okay babies, i wanna go screeeeeam!

sweetest note

2009-06-07T20:59:00.005+08:00

It was a scorching hot Saturday. I got the house all to myself and what's Linda if she wasn't sleeping on her off day right? I was tossing here and there, here and there but the eyes just refused to gimme a break. The boy is sound asleep where else the girl is out of town. How coincidence can things be right? I feel so abandoned!(hah)

I guess it's just the right time for my brain to work out some creativity. I reached for my phone, started counting the dates on my calender and ta-daaaa... I got my ass off bed and start working on it...

And and the boy is super lucky i tell you.. On a sweeter note, I got a fabulous ride home filled with smiles and laughters :):):) i hope you too, baby!

Ps: can't wait for the next surprise, can?!

i declare

2009-06-06T11:33:00.006+08:00

Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection.
"Like an apple hanging from a tree. I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed.
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter,
like a hard candy with a surprise center."
How can i get better once I've get the best?

She's a bitch you know, all she's got is blondeness,
Not even tenderness, yeah she's clever-less,
She'll dump your ass for a model called Brendan,
He will pay for a beautiful surgery, because he's full of money,

I thought it was a love story but you don't want to get involved. I thought it was a love story but you're not ready for that. I'll kill her. She stole my future. She broke my dream. I'll kill her! She stole my future when she took you away.
(man I told you... you know, if I find her,i really , I'll kill her for real. I'll just find something, anything... a gun if I can. Anything. And I'm strong enough, so I'll do it. I'll kill her.)

You see you can't play with people's feelings. Tell them you love them and then you don't mean it. You probably say that it was juvenile but I think that I deserve to smile. I hope it don't come back to my broken heart. You could never feel how I felt that day. Until it happens, you'll never know the pain.

on some days i actually hate the fact that i live a life in such a protective environment that keeps me safe from all life's hardships that when something as small as that hits me, i feel like my world has crashed on me. i still thank my mom for spoiling me so much that even at twenty one, i still feel four.

and on other days, i just refuse to let it bother me.

good day babies, i'm sure at least half of you don't understand what i am blabbering about here.

for the boy

2009-06-05T00:03:00.004+08:00

I can't give solutions to all your problems, doubts or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all its heartache and pain nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling. I can only offer my hand that you may grasp so that you wont fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make,nor to judge; I can only support you, encourage you and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me. I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you but I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting but I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are. I can only love you.
For you are special =)

come on

2009-06-04T11:29:00.003+08:00

Morning lovelies!
Say it with me.. Reality and truth are the same. Both hurts!

nothing matter more. im speechless & clueless.

my own language

2009-05-22T10:06:00.002+08:00

I try so hard to be the best little girl in the world.

But then I learn and realize that the world doesn't appreciate the best. So, we all turn bad, haven't we?
Bad for better. Good for worse.

You with me?

_____________________________________________________

I hate dreams coz then I won't be able to call it a good night's rest. Oh well, I had a dream.

Last night, I dreamt about you. My phone rang and it was you on the other line. I couldn't recognise the number, but I could instantly recognise your voice. In that dream, I remembered taking a second look at my phone screen, just to confirm I wasn't hallucinating. You apologised for walking away. I cried for I was speechless. I couldn't describe how I felt. I could feel those warm tears in my eyes. I miss your jokes. I miss looking at you. I miss your meaningless words. And above all that, I just miss you!

But it was just a dream.

Love. Linda

YOU

2009-05-05T18:39:00.002+08:00

In life, YOU will realise that there is a purpose for every person YOU meet.
Some are there to test YOU,some will use YOU, some will teach YOU & some will bring out the best in YOU.
Some may cause YOU pain but YOU'LL learn to move on.
So let go of the people who don't treat YOU right & hold on to those who love YOU and see YOUR worth.

but it wasnt from YOU

2009-05-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

i had my late supper and his early breakfast as early as 530am at HarbourFront.. and it was sucha memorable trip with momma's colleague and the schoolmate (hah!)

if you could see me now

2009-04-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as your heart, when it breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

If there's a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It thrashes around your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea; it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a thrashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that's the thing about love- no one in untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent. You're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it.

-Cecelia Ahern.

numb

2009-04-27T12:26:00.003+08:00

i can almost see the dream im dreaming but there's a voice inside my head saying i'll never reach it. every step i'm taking, every move i make feels lost with no direction. my fate is shaking! the struggles im facing, the chances im taking sometimes might knock me down. i might not know this but these are the moments im gonna remember.. MOST! and i gotta be strong, just keep pushing. :)

glad i found you!

thats just me

2009-04-23T23:11:00.004+08:00

I don't think most people understand me, but I like my individuality ツ
It was sis's 18th last 2 days! and what's a birthday without bashing up and sabotag-ing her.. :))

fir you

2009-04-19T16:56:00.007+08:00

oh mannnn! what a sunday, ironically i hate sundays unlike others cos ive to start work on monday. and i dont favour the idea of starting on the 1st day of the week. (hah!) mama knows her daughter best and she made me a sumptious breakfast (ive not had breakfast ever since i started work).

i was groggily having my breakfast...

mama: linda... nak beli rumah?
me: definitely but after marriage, den i ll have a walk-in wardrobe in one of my rooms.
mama: serious or not?

and i kept smiling to myself..

mama: kak! u can buy house already.
me: im not married yet la.. not possible okayy
mama: cannnn. just apply with my name but den u ll need to get around amk.
me: but whyyy??
mama: cos staying near the parents is more beneficial.

im still pondering over it.. should i??? *winks*

wat else?

2009-04-15T14:01:00.006+08:00

Hello Babies!!!

Oh yeah.. vbeen on the run almost every other day but still having fun. Kinda enjoying the free time before the busy moments starts knocking my days &nights :)

Apart from that, Im doing well (haa) and missing that someone. then again, whats new, baby? hmmmm...

thanks for the afternoon
:)

well done!

2009-04-08T16:42:00.001+08:00

You've stepped back and have been letting life move on around you without getting involved, and that was smart -- it kept you out of the current drama. But today, you might need to consider getting back into an active role. But if you decide to rejoin this rat race, just be sure to take things slowly. Baby steps will lead you down the right path -- and possibly into the right person's arms. Let yourself be taken care of a little while longer -- you deserve the attention.

Enough said; understood!

today

2009-03-30T11:32:00.009+08:00

"I'm just a little girl lost in the moment. I'm so scared but I don't show it. I can't figure it out. It's bringing me down. I know I've got to let it go &just enjoy the show "

I know I've said in my earlier post that both reality & truth hurts. But today, I got the better side of it all. Though it's heart-wrecking, it's best that I get or understand the real deal. Moments shared will be remembered and rest assured nothing will be forgotten. Anyway, aren't I right to say that all good things gotta come to an end? Sooner or later ... coz forever is not reality, never was.

Just when I thought I'm putting a stop to everything, it all comes rolling in. Pretty irritating you know? I don't wish to build castles in the air cos this time round, I'm going with the flow. More happened but as usual, not going into details :)

See the possibilities
Smell the success
Taste the rewards

im hurt

2009-02-02T18:21:00.004+08:00

Say it with me.. Reality and truth are the same. Both hurts!
To love is to let go? That, would be my waking dream.

I guess absence makes the heart grows fonder.
Take care sweetheart! *MUACKS*

thts me

2009-01-25T01:08:00.011+08:00

The new year isn't about what happened. It's about what's to come. But the past is always with us. Just waiting to mess with the present and when that happens, I'll be watching.. Life is weird. Life is contradicting. Life is unfair. What else?

I'm not a petty kinda person. Most of the time, I'll just let the matter rest, I've learnt to let go. I'm patient & most of the time, I'll tell myself to relax, be calm. But sometimes.. I see no point in helping because you are not helping yourself. No one can change you except yourself. Remember, humans aged in time. Oh ya, "if you are happy i'm happy". That's bullshit!

it's your choice whether to remember.
ohh i miss YOU many many.

raindrops

2009-01-21T12:10:00.004+08:00

and how I wish you have the courage to tell me so..

thats just so unfortunate..

2009-01-15T17:11:00.004+08:00

my beloved phone chose to abandon me this morning. hours later, the sim card decided to leave too. and now.. i'm all alone not entertained..

HOW CAN I NOT BE DEMORALISED, HUNNEH?

2009-01-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIRA!
YOU'RE EIGHT. LOVE YOU MANY MANY SWEETHEART!!!
*muacks*

thats from me

2009-01-09T09:54:00.009+08:00

There is no such thing in anyone's life as an unimportant day. There is nothing permanent except change. A text from the babe woke me up from my dream. Yes babe, we are the only real obstacle in our path to a fulfilling life. What makes life dreary is the want of a motive. What was really needed was a fundamental change in our attitude toward life.

I've yet to commit in a true love relationship. I've not experienced to love with someone true. All I learn a relationship is ~~always~~ about lies&fakes. So what's the point right? Honestly, relationship fears me. ehh no! I fear relationships. (hahah..)

girl: I wanna get engaged at 21. that's after march ah.. (haha)
boy: Bf don't have, wanna engaged.. Who's that unlucky guy ahh.. (hahahahahah)
girl: Where got unlucky? Im loving and romantic lah.. No need bf. Bf none faithful one.
boy: (hahahahaha) if u know bf no faithful one then you think can get a faithful fiance ah..

that's his point (hahah)

boy: you still young what.. still got long way to go..
girl: i wanna settle down early lah. b425 i wanna get married. (mentel kan?)
boy: i think b4 25 you still no bf (hahahahahahahahaha)
girl: stop it eh you. ders always someone out there.
boy: ya lah.. but thats when ure 28! (hahahahhahahahah)

is that how a friend support another friend? (hahahahaha)

girl: aye! best anot fool around?
boy: huh! i where got fool around.. if im fooling around, girls will already be around me.. and i wont be texting you any more.. (hahahaha)

hahahahah! there's always multi-tasking lah boy..

Will you look back on life and say, "I wish I had," or "I'm glad I did"?

What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?

well said

2009-01-01T13:31:00.009+08:00

hello 2009!
as i stepped into the house last night..

brother: kak! you're home? today no new year party ehk..
me: no comments puh-lease.
me: im not excited.. unlike previous years..
brother: why.. eh kak, thats your bf.. dont wanna scream ahh.. *giggles*
me: shuddup u!

mama interrupted my convo with the youngest.

mama: kakak da besar.
me: huh?
mama: you've grown up lah kak. and it's all about work. unlike schooldays when nothing concern you except friends and holidays. that's why not fun like that..
me: hahah.. well said mama! (and thats my first laugh for 2009)

ahhh... so that's basically the reason why im at home when the clock strikes 12. work is taking away all of my time. haha!

thats girls

2008-12-28T12:24:00.006+08:00

Girls are like phones. We love to be held, talked too but if you press the wrong button you'll be disconnected!

Hoping so much for this weekend, I'm so unfortunate to spend the weekend all alone. Its a sunny Sunday and I'm at home just becus I'm so sick. My nose is so itchy that I kept rubbing it till it turns red. My throat hurts alot that I kept coughing each time I want to talk. My head is so heavy it makes me wanna lie on my bed and not getting up the whole day.. being so afraid of Mr. vaccine, will i ever be healthy again... :(

Mama is out with daddy and brother. They're out with no-thing and will be back home with many many paper bags. ISH!!

Am I just not comfortable with the late night &early morning dew? Yet it's not a dead end to take the passenger's seat every now and then. Just a little hole in my pocket.. ahah!

2008-12-19T01:38:00.005+08:00

Hello babies!!

im pretty impatient for the '09 party.. haa!!

reality check: im the first to turn 21 amongst the year '88 babies. cool or whaatt??