July 31, 2008♥
if only...
Perplexion conquered my mind for the whole of yesterday. Her silent weep made me her sensitive little girl last night. I then realise her importance and my responsibility towards her. If only her angel guidance was here, I believe things would turn out a little better.
I could still have our midnight talks. I could still have somebody to share my doubts and worries. There could still be somebody giving me morning wake-ups. There could still be somebody nagging each time I delayed my prayers. =) I could still accompany you strolled in the park. There could still be the evenings when I brought you out for a jog. I could have then made surprise visit to your home every weekend.
If only you're not away from us.. I could have still be in your arms. I miss your greetings and advices, like always. They are too precious for me to discard. If only those could be photographed, I would have made multiple copies and kept them safely in my care. I MISS YOU! =')
All that happens are predetermined but I am weak. So weak to face up to it. I don't have the courage and willingness to face all these responsibilities brought to me. I need strength. I need patience. I hope not to walk through this upsailing journey all alone. Will Fate ever decreed me with a better blessed life?
it's not a war 10:40 am
July 28, 2008♥
that nightmare or is it a dream come true
Life has neither been busy nor free but a teeny weeny bit disorganised. =)
Lately, I am occupied with my daily dosage of common activities. With the never-ending work piles in office on weekdays, my weekend is nevertheless busy too. My Saturdays is filled with doing housechores and cleaning up everywhere while on Sundays, I will make my way to the markert as early as 8 in the morning. =)
Also lately, my sleep is way too improper. I got my full 8 hours of sleeping therapy but in between, I've been disturbed with nightmares about everyone everywhere, anyone anywhere, somebody somewhere.
it's not a war 11:21 am
July 19, 2008♥
stars shine, stars bright.
Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing. I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could. We have so many dreams and it seems that I can’t shake those memories. I know this sounds lame but who cares. Cos linda is always lame but it’s so true. Sometimes I wish we could just pretend. When I was feeling down, you’d make that face you do. There’s no one in the world who could replace you.
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives. I keep thinking times will never change, keep on thinking things will always be the same. As we go on, we remember all the times we had together and as our lives change, come whatever we will still be together. So if we get the big jobs and make the big money, when we look back now, will our jokes still be funny? I keep thinking that it'll never be goodbye but it's only a time to fly.
I love you babes many many.
We’ll be friends
Hopefully without end
So I just wanna say thanks
Thanks for being my friend
it's not a war 8:39 am
July 17, 2008♥
i woke up late
To spice up my morning, I was alarmed by an unexpected and usually undesirable event. It happened before my naked eyes just a few steps before i reach my workplace. I became speechless.
The misfortune that had happened to the couple had made me realise the importance of life. Eversince today, I will not take the risk to ride any bikes.
it's not a war 9:55 am
July 16, 2008♥
im bac
From somebody I trust..
Friends might be feeling like you're hiding out from the world right about now, so touch base and let them know that you're doing okay. Time is something you want to spend by yourself, and this is a healthy thing to do. Your energy level is strong, but it's not social. Mixing with other people and sharing small talk is not as fulfilling as curling up with a favorite book, taking a long walk, or experimenting in the kitchen. If you're a homebody right now, that's a good thing!
So.. anyone wants a date?.. Hehs!
Hey babes! As told, im doing ok aite? Hahaaa! The above mentioned is so true but well.. i think im now bac to myself. I could hear the
Ka-ching Ka-ching lar sey. Let's hit somewhere again & story2 soon aite? And i miss you people during those days!
random.
i was in the lift this morning, an aunty (whom i everyday met when going to work) asked, "you no boyfriend ahh???"
and i replied, "don't have, aunty. (i end it with a smile)
another random incident.
i was waiting for the train, another ah-soh asked, "wahh.. so fresh ahh!"
i smiled.
ps: ehh.. morning2 got lots of aunty ahh? ahahhahah!
it's not a war 9:59 am
July 14, 2008♥
Another year passed
Happy Birthday Cik Titi! Another year gone. May you be blessed with good health &wealth.
And surprisingly, you visit my blog laa sey.. It was totally unexpected.
it's not a war 12:02 pm
July 09, 2008♥
Happy Birthday
Hope you gonna love the surprise, babajo.
And meanwhile,
it's not a war 8:49 am
July 08, 2008♥
IS THAT THE CASE
Dear pal, am i living in denial all this while?
Random #1
Recently, i fell seriously ill and that moment of faith made me realise from my dream emotionally. hey! i am living in a real world where there are complications, hatreds and more evil things i'd never know. Nothing is perfect and nice.
Random #2
I tried to accept everything that happens in my life. Read my lips. E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. Even though I've tried stopping things from happening, I still let things happen. Cos Im living with the fact that things happen for a reason. But am i ready to hear out the reasons? Ironic right?
Random #3
Friends make my life go round. I need my friends. There are times when I wanna be alone but at the same time, I want them to be with me. I was happy everytime we were out together but am i really happy? or was i running away from my worries?
Random #4
When I was very young back then, I'd aways wanted a fixed income job. Preferably working at fixed hours too. i've got one currently but why am i still not happy? Why am i still dreading to work just as i would dread each time i went to school years ago. Am i still not ready to face the real world where money matters?
Random #5
I hope and wish for a happy and stable family in the near future but look at the current status im in. I can't even trust myself. How am i gonna share the rest of my life with an outsider whom I'll consider as my soulmate?
Random #6
People say; Love yourself before others. How do I build love and trust when I am trying so hard to love and have faith in myself?
it's not a war 11:01 am
July 07, 2008♥
i own
Half a year gone ever since I started working. fast right? time was pretty fast without me realising. In fact US! Our busy schedules have made us lost track of time. We used to countdown the days and waiting for big events but not anymore. Now, those days would come knocking on our door. And before we realised, it'll be too late to run away.
Even though the babes are too busy with their daily schedules, we would never miss to have atleast a day out each month. It already seem to be a must of our monthly activity, right? And let me clear things here; we dont plan or plan to organize these activities.
I would just let the pictures do the talking for today.
And after lunch, we proceed to have our lungs a little exercise after eating all those food!
And presenting the DIVAs!
it's not a war 10:08 am