Shine on.

June 30, 2009♥

perhaps

" When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot & hang on. "

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new

I loved you with a fire red but now it's turning blue
And you say "Sorry" like the angel
Heaven let me think it was you...

and boy.. trust me, it will always be you!

*i can't wait for you BIG day, gf!*

it's not a war 9:44 pm

June 29, 2009♥

A NEW START

another day to go before i smell July making its way to me :))

i cant wait to start a new month. Oh well, June will never be my favourite. However i managed to cross the bridge. Despite the heart pain days, the teary hours, the cranky minutes and the monstrous seconds.. Im still loving what I've loved since 3 months back. That, i dun deny!

Sometimes, taking the path of a wise man is so... tough.

We tend to let emotions over power sensibility. We open doors to satisfy our desires and not made known of possible negative outcomes. Only when things happen against what we wanted, we find ourselves listening to friends telling us what we already knew. Sick cycle carousel. It happens again and again and we'll never learn. If only I could read your mind then things might be a tat easier isn't it? As much as it was said again and again that words might not even pass the truth, sometimes, I just need to be told of the simple things even if it counts to a million. Yes I am very insecure, but it doesn't take much if it pleases me to have you spelling out everything.

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise
You're the last thing I think of
When I close my eyes

it's not a war 11:37 pm

♥

my trust

TWO SECRETS TO KEEP THE RELATIONSHIP LASTING
1. whenever you are wrong, admit it
2. whenever you are right, keep quiet

a good girlfriend always forgive her boyfriend when shes wrong.

it's not a war 12:01 am

June 27, 2009♥

life for you

Life's been a bitch but was quite good with the girls last morning. I had my smiles reminiscing moments at Gelare! such a waste faizah wasn't around. babe, we miss you! get bac to shift work pleaseeee! :/

And since school's gonna resume anytime soon, I decided to hit the sack over at the favourite cousin's crib for the night. Its been a long time girl since I last gave you kisses and look how long you've grown. i seriously mean it; LONG! hehe..

and before i could even haf my shower she'd dragged me to her room and stunned me with.. "kakak linda! so long never take pictures with you leh" so here's a peep of us taken.

just before nightime, the little cousin had her own bedtime story personally shared by me together with our favourite bears.

okay babies, i wanna get my boy's surprise done. Have faith, even if it does not make sense at times. see ya!

it's not a war 10:56 pm

June 23, 2009♥

All i could say for now is...

I MISS HIM!

i hope the paperhearts help you along the way...

it's not a war 7:29 pm

June 22, 2009♥

thumbs up

Take 1: "heyy is that maria?"

Take 2: "okayyy! Much better."

It was another mundane Monday. An off day on a Monday isn't appealing at all. Totally. However, was doing the laundry when the phone beep.

her: I'm on leave. I thought of going to east coast actually. But I can change the plan :)
me: Okay babe.. see you at woodlands, 1330hr.

Back to the old days.. Hopped onto a long bus ride and all the way we journeyed to east coast park.

And presenting to you.. this little girl who's successfully cheered her mundane Monday with many many smiles. *hugs for her* She misses you, baby!

Goodnight world!

it's not a war 11:41 pm

♥

thoughts

Every night her tears will roll.
With every might, but she cant control.
All that make sense, bursting like bubbles,
and now she feels so vulnerable.

But every time there's a pair of hands,
a slap so tight, on her face it lands.
Hoping for a rebound her cry grows faint,
praying to god to take away her pain.

She contemplates suicide, but she don't want to die.
As she hits the floor, she curls up and lie.
She distant herself from absurdity,
As she tries to catch up with reality.

it's not a war 12:50 am

June 18, 2009♥

E I G H T

Despite doing double last night, I could still afford another sleepless day with the girls. Thanks babies, for e happy moment over at Sakura!

ps: i miss baby. Bluek!

it's not a war 8:36 pm

June 15, 2009♥

its just me

I pray to mute despair and anguish
To vain pursuits the world esteems,
Long did I near your soothing accents,
Long did your features haunt my dreams.

Sometimes i find my self thinking of you more then i should but i wont stop myself even if i could. I love you more than you can imagine. When I see your face it brighten up my day. I love you more than words can ever tell. Even more than what im about to say.

I don't remember the last time i felt like this. You make me feel the real me. You don't know how happy it makes me when I can share things with you, comfortably. I love the way you smile. I love the way you make me laugh and you give me hope....when things get a little sad.

Your hug makes me feel free from all the drama and trouble that life brings my way. If i would have 1 wish and one wish only, I wish for this love to be here to stay.

it's not a war 9:30 pm

June 14, 2009♥

talk to me

Hello world!
Tell me what's the point of emailing one another every time and when things get too messy, meeting up is still the best? trust me babies, that's so ridiculous.. erk!

I have a story.
ermmmmm nah! i decided not to share. tell u what, i feel so cheated! if never ask, never tell righhhht? where's the initiative here? but to meet up got initiative. ERRRRRK!

and i truly appreciate the little one together with the ~~step~~-lil nephews..
"kakak linda! jom we go fun fair!! there can laugh2, happy2" wahahahah! how understanding can they be right? at a young age summore... Aww!

okay babies, i wanna go screeeeeam!

it's not a war 7:53 pm

June 07, 2009♥

sweetest note

It was a scorching hot Saturday. I got the house all to myself and what's Linda if she wasn't sleeping on her off day right? I was tossing here and there, here and there but the eyes just refused to gimme a break. The boy is sound asleep where else the girl is out of town. How coincidence can things be right? I feel so abandoned!(hah)

I guess it's just the right time for my brain to work out some creativity. I reached for my phone, started counting the dates on my calender and ta-daaaa... I got my ass off bed and start working on it...

And and the boy is super lucky i tell you.. On a sweeter note, I got a fabulous ride home filled with smiles and laughters :):):) i hope you too, baby!

Ps: can't wait for the next surprise, can?!

it's not a war 8:59 pm

June 06, 2009♥

i declare

Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection.
"Like an apple hanging from a tree. I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed.
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter,
like a hard candy with a surprise center."
How can i get better once I've get the best?

She's a bitch you know, all she's got is blondeness,
Not even tenderness, yeah she's clever-less,
She'll dump your ass for a model called Brendan,
He will pay for a beautiful surgery, because he's full of money,

I thought it was a love story but you don't want to get involved. I thought it was a love story but you're not ready for that. I'll kill her. She stole my future. She broke my dream. I'll kill her! She stole my future when she took you away.
(man I told you... you know, if I find her,i really , I'll kill her for real. I'll just find something, anything... a gun if I can. Anything. And I'm strong enough, so I'll do it. I'll kill her.)

You see you can't play with people's feelings. Tell them you love them and then you don't mean it. You probably say that it was juvenile but I think that I deserve to smile. I hope it don't come back to my broken heart. You could never feel how I felt that day. Until it happens, you'll never know the pain.

on some days i actually hate the fact that i live a life in such a protective environment that keeps me safe from all life's hardships that when something as small as that hits me, i feel like my world has crashed on me. i still thank my mom for spoiling me so much that even at twenty one, i still feel four.

and on other days, i just refuse to let it bother me.

good day babies, i'm sure at least half of you don't understand what i am blabbering about here.

it's not a war 11:33 am

June 05, 2009♥

for the boy

I can't give solutions to all your problems, doubts or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all its heartache and pain nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling. I can only offer my hand that you may grasp so that you wont fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make,nor to judge; I can only support you, encourage you and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me. I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you but I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting but I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are. I can only love you.
For you are special =)

it's not a war 12:03 am

June 04, 2009♥

come on

Morning lovelies!
Say it with me.. Reality and truth are the same. Both hurts!

nothing matter more. im speechless & clueless.

it's not a war 11:29 am