Perplexion conquered my mind for the whole of yesterday. Her silent weep made me her sensitive little girl last night. I then realise her importance and my responsibility towards her. If only her angel guidance was here, I believe things would turn out a little better.


I could still have our midnight talks. I could still have somebody to share my doubts and worries. There could still be somebody giving me morning wake-ups. There could still be somebody nagging each time I delayed my prayers. =) I could still accompany you strolled in the park. There could still be the evenings when I brought you out for a jog. I could have then made surprise visit to your home every weekend.


If only you're not away from us.. I could have still be in your arms. I miss your greetings and advices, like always. They are too precious for me to discard. If only those could be photographed, I would have made multiple copies and kept them safely in my care. I MISS YOU! =')


All that happens are predetermined but I am weak. So weak to face up to it. I don't have the courage and willingness to face all these responsibilities brought to me. I need strength. I need patience. I hope not to walk through this upsailing journey all alone. Will Fate ever decreed me with a better blessed life?

it's not a war 10:40 am