Shine on.

April 28, 2009♥

if you could see me now

When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as your heart, when it breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

If there's a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It thrashes around your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea; it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a thrashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that's the thing about love- no one in untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent. You're just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it.

-Cecelia Ahern.

it's not a war 10:22 pm

April 27, 2009♥

numb

i can almost see the dream im dreaming but there's a voice inside my head saying i'll never reach it. every step i'm taking, every move i make feels lost with no direction. my fate is shaking! the struggles im facing, the chances im taking sometimes might knock me down. i might not know this but these are the moments im gonna remember.. MOST! and i gotta be strong, just keep pushing. :)

glad i found you!

it's not a war 12:26 pm

April 23, 2009♥

thats just me

I don't think most people understand me, but I like my individuality ツ
It was sis's 18th last 2 days! and what's a birthday without bashing up and sabotag-ing her.. :))

it's not a war 11:11 pm

April 19, 2009♥

fir you

oh mannnn! what a sunday, ironically i hate sundays unlike others cos ive to start work on monday. and i dont favour the idea of starting on the 1st day of the week. (hah!) mama knows her daughter best and she made me a sumptious breakfast (ive not had breakfast ever since i started work).

i was groggily having my breakfast...

mama: linda... nak beli rumah?
me: definitely but after marriage, den i ll have a walk-in wardrobe in one of my rooms.
mama: serious or not?

and i kept smiling to myself..

mama: kak! u can buy house already.
me: im not married yet la.. not possible okayy
mama: cannnn. just apply with my name but den u ll need to get around amk.
me: but whyyy??
mama: cos staying near the parents is more beneficial.

im still pondering over it.. should i??? *winks*

it's not a war 4:56 pm

April 15, 2009♥

wat else?

Hello Babies!!!

Oh yeah.. vbeen on the run almost every other day but still having fun. Kinda enjoying the free time before the busy moments starts knocking my days &nights :)

Apart from that, Im doing well (haa) and missing that someone. then again, whats new, baby? hmmmm...

thanks for the afternoon
:)

it's not a war 2:01 pm

April 08, 2009♥

well done!

You've stepped back and have been letting life move on around you without getting involved, and that was smart -- it kept you out of the current drama. But today, you might need to consider getting back into an active role. But if you decide to rejoin this rat race, just be sure to take things slowly. Baby steps will lead you down the right path -- and possibly into the right person's arms. Let yourself be taken care of a little while longer -- you deserve the attention.

Enough said; understood!

it's not a war 4:42 pm