If today you call out my name and tomorrow u do the same

And if you didn't call out my name, but i cry out in pain, what is it then?

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Phrases that marks to the question to be interpreted in many ways

You're bound to lose this fight if you're not to pay,

a considerable watch on the masquerade.

Now speak less of words, and lift up your head

Now prince of my eyes, I'll pray.

I can't beat the language

I can't beat the hair

I can't beat the dreams

But I can beat these thoughts.

Oh love i can...

it's not a war 8:31 pm

It would take me a whole courage to be smiling wide despite hoping that someday things will mend and be the same. Now that the line's broken, I'm too afraid to just look back but nonetheless, the girls made me happy..

it's not a war 11:13 pm

You think material's the reason I stay?

it's not a war 1:29 pm

it's not a war 1:18 pm

life is not always a bed of roses. we can't expect everything to go in our way because reality check, the best and bad turns in life are in fact the ones that shape us for who we are today. life is, ironically, under our self-control. we rule it. we determine how it should turn out the way we picture it to be.

so where was i last year? having pleasurable time handling the boo boo of life. in one hand, there was the examination stress and on the other, there lies the emotional rollercoaster ride of you-know-what. it's rather impressive to know that i've managed to somehow squeeze my way through the narrow escape of heartaches, failure and lovelovelove, making a forward move to achievement. so yay! i know you think you can fail me but i turned the table around, you made me stronger.

ahh that aside, life is everchanging for me. of course, every step tjhat i take seems like a big leap to the other side but from where i am, it looks greener. let's just hope and pray.

and for that, happy fasting you babies!

it's not a war 4:40 pm

In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing you can do is nothing.
- Theodore Roosvelt.

it's not a war 12:57 am

"A girl can dream, but it takes a man to make it happen"

One after another. Dreams are achieved. I wonder what's ahead of me. Sometimes things don't go as we plan it to be. I wonder how it gonna be then...

I have been around this topic with everyone almost everytime, that it keeps me thinking and seeing the real life ahead. The more I tried to see the upcoming events in my life, the more I float away with my dreams. But I like it, somehow. I would sit around at home, at work, just anywhere picturing how my life will be when I am married =]

I want to get married early actually and you know the only reason that is stopping me is money money and money. You can easily learn how to cook, how to manage a family, how to treat your husband well and how to do housework, but you just can't simply learn how to save up. I am convinced I am right on that. I like the idea of settling down very quickly and live moderately but happily. I want to have a girl who grows up to be just like me. Loves shopping and anything abstract. She will wear anything that is on me, and I am picturing the both of us, walking hand in hand, in a white sundress and a denim jacket. She'll definitely looks gorgeously cute! I'm smiling silly as I typed this.We will all live in a cosy home, have classic furniture around and probably go with the country theme. I foresee myself being a good wife, making breakfast every morning and starts the day kicking for everyone at home. Mom said I will have a clean home because I ace in housework. That a motivation I shall say. Hah!

Wow I didn't know I have dreams to live for. I've got dreams to remember and I will not fail. One will never live without a dream, and it's that dream that reminds us of who you are in every second of your life.

it's not a war 9:33 am